Thursday, September 29, 2011

The vile names we call ourselves LECTURE: 9-29-11

I was just sent an email which is considered funny about being a bitch before your coffee and still being a bitch after your coffee. The world has accepted that being a bitch or a jerk is something to be proud of. Please do not think of yourself as anything other than loving. You were created by love to be love and to experience love. Thought is proactive. It is impossible for thought to NOT take form and produce action. I am not making it up. It is the truth just like the world was not flat.

The practice of putting someone in their place, winning useless arguments, putting extreme effort into making another person wrong so you can be right, etc. is considered taking care of business, not letting anyone walk over you, and being strong. The results of these actions are immutable. Not only did your actions impact another person, it also impacted you whether you are aware of it or not. Your true nature is already burdened under desires and attachments don’t burden it with incorrectly labeling yourself.

Be the love that you are naturally.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Complaining and fault finding

I went to a brunch this weekend with two other women. I love these women and I enjoy their company. I do my share of verbally noting annoyances and there were many annoyances being noted by all of us.

I am determined not to disturb my degree of happiness which is impossible for me to maintain when I am complaining, or just noting, which is complaining. No matter what spin I put on it, it equates to an attitude problem. This is why I am posting this; to remind myself. I can only change myself.

Attitudes are connected to our core values and they are habitual. I came from a family of complainers. Complaining and fault finding was the accepted form of communication. I am finding this habit difficult to deal with and to stop. It is very easy to get caught up with the heat of the complaining.

I understand I must take full responsibility for both my own happiness and spiritual well-being. Material possessions and other people can contribute to my worldly comfort and well-being and perhaps inspire me, but I alone, must develop the right attitudes and values that will provide a deep and abiding joy and contentment regardless of my external circumstances. Complaining is a diversion and I never like the results.

Letting Go:

It is possible to maintain serenity of mind no matter what my circumstances are. The more I allow my mind to run unchecked with thoughts that are not really essential the more unsettled my mind becomes. I don’t know about you, but I find it difficult to let go of negative events that have taken place in the past. To secure my happiness I must stand guard over my thinking and not let it get revved up. I have self-reflection techniques that help stop those thoughts and their eventual results which make me feel dark, ugly and right. In this situation the more “right” I am the more “wrong” I am.

Self Reflection:

So we need to remember that our thoughts create our consciousness and our consciousness determines the way we lead our life. The way we lead our life determines the state of our actions, the results of those actions and the effects those results have on other people.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Intention 9-21-11

I wanted to write something like this blog for a long time before I actually did it. I told myself I could not publish anything until I could walk the talk. That being said, I was at my Tao discussion group on Sunday and my ego mind showed up guised as inspiration. I felt inspired to share, but this time, I also felt an attachment to what I wanted to say. It felt controlling. It was not natural it was my ego wanting some recognition.

I find it very interesting these two minds I have. My true mind which is a gift from the creator filled with compassion and correct desire to help others and my ego mind. My ego mind being my perception also the sum total of my worldly values. I’ve learned by studying Tao that I came into this world with karmic seeds from my past lives. The whole reason for cultivating is to remove these seeds. These seeds represent attachments and desires. Each comes equipped with cause and effect. Or, also, reaction and consequence. I know this far in my cultivation, if I do not like the consequence; I have a belief ensconced in my subconscious that has to be changed. I am very grateful for all the resources all around to help me fully examine, in self reflection, and to influence changing my values that are of this world. I fully accept that I am an eternal being having a human experience. Each time I am successful in learning the lesson I get to experience joy and knowing that another karmic seed has been removed from my subconscious.

“The desire and the consequence rise together.” Buddha

I have already decided for my next discussion group to quietly determine my intention with each idea I wish to share before I speak.

Thursday, September 15, 2011


Teasing is only teasing when there is not shred of truth to it.

FEAR = False evidence acting real

True happiness is only experienced in the moment. The past is history and the future is a mystery.

It’s not what other people think of you, it’s what you think they think.

"We can't blame a fire for burning." Buddha

Non interference in the lives of others.

All attraction is of God.

Every "end" is a new "beginning".

Friday, September 9, 2011

THE PROCESS - 9-9-11

My sister read my blog and we had a great discussion about the “Process”. She is mainstream traditional Christian. I am also Christian but with added Eastern beliefs.
We used to argue about religion. Now, we understand that we each have a different view but we both love God. She has been writing and researching on the canonization of the Bible. This is the process of elimination and rearranging of the books of the Bible to have what we have today.

The process of life is learning, then relearning, eliminating, expanding, and constantly growing. The process will take us through all the phases of our life; (Infant, toddler, child, puberty, teenager, young adult, adult, and senior). The only factor that could change the natural flow of change could be a traumatic event.

My spirituality is an on-going process. I started my life as a Southern Baptist. That was the religion my parents raised me in. All I remember from that experience is to fear God. Our pastor did not allow us to wear makeup or to go to dances. I did both.

The next phase was learning to be a Catholic for love. I was in love with a sailor from Brooklyn New York who was an Italian whose family was from Sicily. They were Catholics which meant Joe and I had to be married in the Catholic Church or they did not recognize the marriage as a marriage. Joe and I were in California. His ship was leaving for Vietnam. We decided to get secretly married from our families in order to get the spousal support from the Navy while he was gone. I was baptized into the Catholic religion and our family wedding was planned for after he was discharged from the Navy.
We never made it to that wedding.

One year later I was remarried and living in Renton, Washington. My new husband and I were baptized into the Mormon religion. It was during these 10 years I came to have a personal relationship with God.

Twelve years later I was divorced again and looking for answers. I found many answers which led me to a study of Eastern Religions. My beliefs were morphing again. Five years later I was married for the third time and excommunicated from the Mormon Church. That marriage only last for four years and was a very difficult time for me.

Since then, after a few more attempts at relationships, I have processed to not “needing” to be in a relationship. I put needing in parenthesis because it was the need that I’ve processed through. I am quite content being on my own. Now I continue the process with a group of people where we discuss Tao. It’s really here, where my happiness really started to soar and continues to soar and grow in understanding.

I sincerely believe there is a plan for each of our lives. That plan is this process. This process will take each of us back to our eternal heavenly home. The time that takes is entirely up to us and when we are willing to learn each lesson.

I would love it if you would post your process and how that is continuing for you.


Friday, September 2, 2011


One of my friends called me to say he read my blog and agreed with most of it. He went on to say there is also sadness, there is gain and loss, there are times when your children give you happiness and then they give you grief. All these have an effect on happiness.

I know where he is coming from. What he is describing is duality. Duality is ONLY of this world. The happiness my blog is describing is NOT of this world. It comes from your eternal true self and is the happiness that will get you through every form of duality you will experience while you are doing your human experience. Sadness and loss happen here in the world of form and time. Finding your true nature and cultivating from your true heart gives you a better way to handle loss, grief, and sadness.

I’ve always wanted to reform the world from all that is wrong with it. I would see injustice that threw me into a tirade even if I could not do anything about it. Standing in my true nature I still see injustice of all kind, but it has a different meaning to me now. The best way to help in the world and to actually have an impact on the world’s natural disasters that are occurring more frequently is to stand in your true nature and pass it on.

My higher power is Jesus Christ. When I am bothered with my thinking on whatever the subject of the moment is, it is, now, easier to turn that thinking and the outcome over to the powers to be. If there is a lesson there for me, I choose to learn it. Sometimes I understand the lesson and it is learned quickly. Other times, I have to mull it over in my mind applying the possible outcomes until I allow myself the joy of getting it. There are times it requires me to ask the Holy Spirit to choose for God for me due to the fact I seem to be unable to choose for God and the eventual peace that follows at that moment. My prayer is always answered and peace of mind always follows. Peace that is not of my making.

The law of cause and effect is the law of nature. Understanding this law has the power to transform your outcomes and be in total control of your happiness at all times, if you choose it. Your happiness is totally your responsibility and you can do it. I know you can. Just remember, until you understand your happiness is in your control, you and anybody else that does not understand are not in control.

It’s very hard for most of us to understand why a person stays in an abusive relationship. I’ll explain it this way, if someone sees a purple moon, no amount of explaining will get them to see the moon as you see it. When they get there, they get there.