Saturday, December 31, 2011


I’ve been consciously observing my thoughts lately. Wow! I really get some doozies.

These are horrific thoughts regarding actions I would NEVER do, words I would NEVER SAY. I’m aware they are coming from my human mind, but WHY? Does this happen to you?

I’ve been taught that all thought produces form on some level. I certainly do not want these crazy thoughts to produce any form on any level.

I don’t want to give much attention to these random weird thoughts, but I thought it was worth mentioning.

This time of year I always take a look at my life; the people I’ve met, the people I’ve loved, the ways I’ve changed not only in my thinking but in what I like to do now versus what I’ve liked to do in my past both recent past and distant past. I go over what I would like to accomplish in both the choices I make for myself and projects I’ve been thinking about doing, books I would like to read, books I would like to write, hobbies I would like to expand on and new ones I would like to try. Life is never boring. There’s just too much to do. Just letting my day happen without me interfering is a wondrous playground.

I feel like I’ve been many different people all in one lifetime. It’s been a good ride.

Thursday, December 29, 2011


With the holidays over except for New Years, I find my mind still all busy on plans, shopping, eating. On my drive to work this morning I sincerely tried to self reflect and gain some inspirational insight. This inspiration did not come. In stead, I found my mind so busy and caught up in my worldly existence I was devoid of inspiration.

This is the way of the world and is an example of why very few people ever stop to ask if this is all there is. We all have an eternal true nature reaching out to be acknowledged. The attachments and desires of this world, and our goals and plans block who we really are.

Hoopla and festivities will never sustain any lasting happiness. The nature of true happiness has absolutely nothing to do with things or even other people. I’ve been feeling tired and distracted. I’ve decided to let these feelings be the cause to clear my mind and to stop and smell the roses (so to speak).

EXAMPLE OF IGNORANCE (ignorance in this sense is not education it is not knowing who you really are).

There is this woman at work who is always in everybody’s business. She interrupts every conversation, she finds fault with everything, and always points out what is wrong with all of her coworkers and customers. She was in my cubicle looking at a daffodil plant I brought to work. She stuck her finger in the dirt and told me what I needed to do. I really feel sorry for people like that. Do you know someone like that? Not only, do they bother the people around them, but it must be really hard to have to control everything and everybody around you. If she ever begins to let go and concentrate within herself, there will be a release of stress and relief of a great magnitude.

Friday, December 23, 2011


Our minds do not know what is real and what is not.  Have you ever had a dream that was very real. In fact, it was so real you mind will think it really happened.  I used to wake up with a recurring dream that I had killed someone.  I would have to rack my brain to go back through my life to make sure that I did not kill anyone.  The reason I'm telling you this, is because this is why your mind can be changed.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

The More I cultivate the dumber I get


I have always admired and chaseed after knowledge. I love people who just seem to know things.

What I mean by my title of this post, is that the more I cultivate the true meaning of my life and my eternal nature the more worldly information I chuck off, thus me saying, "The more I cultivate the dumber I get."

I don't have a lot of time this week so I'm going to quote from a lesson I received in my Tao discussion class:

"Even though there are numerous creatures, all of them eventually will return to the root of their life. The return of all creatures to the root is called tranquility. Tranquility is the same as returning to the true self. This is the true eternal life. People who truly understand eternal life are those who understand the true self and false self (ego). Those who do not understand that soul is beyond annihilation are prone to have wild and fancy imaginations and may act rashly and impetuously. Once this occurs, mistortunes follow. Therefore, those who cherish the true self are open-minded and would tolerate everything; they are selfless and impartial."  And HAPPY!

Have a wonderful holiday!

Thursday, December 15, 2011


Everyone can change their mind. We are not two years old any longer with significant people in our life telling us what is good for us any more. There is always a choice. As long as you are not aware that you have a choice, you will probably not be capable of changing your mind. Our ego (which is not real in the eternal sense) runs on auto pilot until we stop letting our negative thoughts lead to negative projections. Every one of our thoughts will produce form at some level.

In order to be truly happy and to be in control of your outcomes takes changing your mind. Do you know that saying, “The only thing to fear is fear itself?” Fear is self generated from our subconscious. I felt truly liberated when I understood that I was in control of all my fears. That by changing my mind about what I feared the fear itself disappeared. We are drones until we free ourselves with input to change.

In every situation you find yourself in that usually has a negative outcome, take a moment and self reflect on how you would rather the outcome be. Remembering that by design you are loving and compassionate. This means that everyone else is also even if they take pride in their ornery, angry, self-defacing attitudes. You could apply the saying, “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” Take yourself out of what the herd would say or do. Stand apart from the way of the world and you will help change the world. I’m sure you have heard the saying, “Be the change you want to see in the world.” I know that it seems impossible, but it is possible. It starts with you and the ripple effect will happen.

One night coming home from work during a particularly difficult time I was experiencing, I walked through my front door and my children and a few neighborhood children were playing and had created a huge mess exactly like every other day. My first reaction was the same as it always was, but this time I actually felt darkness come over me. I immediately stepped back out the door and then and there decided I did not like the person I am when I experience that dark feeling. I stepped back through the door and starting singing, “It is now cleanup time, cleanup time, cleanup time.” I said, “Come on kids let’s clean this up and I’ll help while I continued to sing. All the children began singing and the house was cleaned up in short order. I never again yelled at my children for anything. If I felt an ugly response coming on, I would turn around and choose to handle that situation where everyone’s dignity stayed in tack starting with my own. My children and grownup now and they still remember that change in me.

I’m not going to sugar coat the choice to change, it is not easy, but it can be done and it is very much worth it for you and for those you interact with. Once you start taking responsibility for your own happiness there is no going back ever. At first, you may say, “Why did I ever do this?” I promise you will be very happy you did. March on, and go towards the light, it is warm and friendly.

Friday, December 9, 2011

GET A HOBBY!! 12-09-11

That title may sound judgmental and I apologize for that. I was inspired to write about this on my way to work. I get my best thoughts while driving my car. I’ve been told that it was something to do with one side of your brain is driving the car and the creative side is more open.

I have some very dear friends that are conflicted with alcoholism. I have observed in these friends that not one of them has a hobby. I find that unusual, but it may be an indicator. When I ask them why they don’t have a hobby, they all say they cannot think of something to do.

Gaining a hobby is as easy as giving yourself the opportunity to be inspired. Each eternal being born to a human body comes into the world with a propensity to create something. Look around your house and let what you own give you inspiration. If you are drawn to beautiful landscapes, maybe your hobby would be painting or photography. Find a class and try that out. Or, if you love flowers and flora and fauna try gardening indoor and/or out. If music speaks to you, maybe you could be a singer with some voice lessons or play an instrument. You may have the ability to write lyrics or poetry.

When involved in creating while doing a hobby, I loose my awareness of time and routines. I have learned to do my creating only for myself. I was too sensitive to other’s opinions. I let my perception of their opinion take joy away from me. Now I create only for my own enjoyment. If someone likes it, all the better, and if they don’t their opinion stays with them.

If anyone asked me what is the one thing a person can do to reflect, my answer would be to first; turn off the noise. The noise is from the radio, TV, and all other instruments that deliver outside stimulation. Get in a quiet state alone and imagine yourself getting a chair and watching yourself think. Observe your thoughts without any editing. After a few times of doing this exercise you will discover which thoughts trouble you. It will give you a place to begin sorting and reprogramming. Just listening to the hum of the natural world is very relaxing. Try it.

Thursday, December 8, 2011


Perception is a trick on the human mind. In order to improve on your happiness, it is important to understand perception and to differentiate the human mind from your true eternal mind.

First, your true eternal mind needs to be awakened. It is burdened under many lifetimes of worldly conditioning, attachments and desires. Until you are aware that you are not your human mind, it will rule you. It’s called your ego. Ego’s can be reprogrammed to function more friendly instead of reacting from a preprogrammed dysfunctional state, but that is just treating a symptom. The real cure is to awake your true eternal mind. When that happens, your choices for reaction will be coming from love and compassion. The world is sorely in need of more folks coming from love and compassion. There is no greater mission to accept and fulfill than this one.

What is perception? I’m going to quote from yahoo answers, *** “Perception is what our senses feed to our consciousness. That is all it is, knowledge of having had a sense of sight, sound, etc. What we make of what our senses feed us is determined as "the proof in the logic." If it looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, swims like a duck, it must be a duck.

But sometimes our minds do not grasp everything our senses feed us, only because we were not paying attention, or because we don't have enough prior knowledge to make sense of our perceptions.

Therefore, there is no right or wrong perception, only right or wrong interpretations of what our five senses feed our minds.”***

As we grow up our individual perception is formed and influenced by the significant people teaching us what is right or wrong according to their individual perception. There is also our interpretation of what is going on around us as we develop. Our interpretation is influenced by our past lives. We are not aware of that, but are part of the equation. If there was trauma during our developing stages, that will also shift our core beliefs which is our perception. To demonstrate this; if someone you are talking to insists that the moon is pink with purple polka dots, there is nothing you can say that will change their vision of the moon. Have you ever had a conversation with someone and you knew exactly what you said and what you meant, but when that conversation is reiterated back to you by the other person, it comes back so different that you think you must be on another planet?

This is why perception is not reality. It may seem like your reality, but because it differs so much from someone else’s reality of the same situation, it cannot be called reality. Hate crimes and genocide are a very real example of this.

I promise you there is a true reality. The good news is that perception can be changed and once your true mind is awakened, your perception can be replaced with true reality. I love knowing that I am not a victim of my programming and that I can be the creator of my own world. To be on a quest for happiness you cannot accept any false ideas.

Due to individual perception two people trying to communicate will never be on “the same page” completely. This is why compassion, forgiveness and patience are important to any on-going relationship.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011


I watched some of the Country Music Awards last night. It screamed out how much our society is hooked on romantic relationships. There was a time when I was also either in one or looking for another one.

The world is set up to go two by two. It always has been and it probably always will be. There is nothing wrong with these kinds of relationships. As long as you are a person that can stay focused on what is important to you and will stick to that even if your partner is not in agreement.

It wasn’t until I got over being codependent that I was able to get a handle on what was important to me. I’m one of those people that always did my partners program. I put my program either aside or lower in importance than their program, except for my children’s father. I was free in that relationship to pursue my interests apart from him and the children. Too bad I ruined that one, which I still have to try to not regret.

In the relationships I’ve had the ability to observe, in most of them there is one dominant personality which determines the program for both. In order to reflect within yourself without conflict, you need to be free of someone else’s controlling influence. Try to cultivate an atmosphere were everyone gets what they want with the complete support of each other. Exactly the way you would treat one of your good friends. If you partner is not your friend, then who are they?

I’m not suggesting you leave your relationship, especially if it is working for you. There is more than one way to be free of your partners control without leaving.

To grow spiritually it takes focus. Too many intimate relationships don’t allow for a person to focus. There are always too many places to go, people to meet, and your partners needs to fulfill. Wow! My head is swirling just mentioning this.

You can actually have peace in your heart being single. You can also have peace when you are not. The purpose of this posting is to help those who are struggling with being single to take heart and take the time to self reflect and make necessary changes for yourself. That way you will not only have peace now, but you will be stronger the next time you enter into a relationship.

Thursday, December 1, 2011



I haven’t added any posts lately because I’m reading a book I can’t put down.

I can’t decide what to write about first:

I was thinking about the fact that our life is not a competition. Living in this world competing can be fun, rewarding, and it can also be defeating and dangerous.

Some people, me included, can compete in whatever form and enjoy the camaraderie and the fun of bating my competitors. Other’s winning the competition is a matter of self esteem. It’s good to remember that no matter how good you are at whatever it is you are good at, there is always someone better. There is always someone better looking, there is always someone with a better singing voice, there is always someone faster, etc.

Some sports are down right dangerous, but that is the allure.  There are studies done that prove football especially for young folks whose brain is still developing is not only dangerous but has also been fatal. It has to do with the many blows to the head. Those blows cause the brain to ram into the scull and if not immediately dangerous, then over time has proven to be so.

Or I could write about the state of the world’s disasters. Each of us can totally affect whether or not there are disasters and where they happen. This is done with our virtue. Virtue is a commitment made within ourselves through self-reflection to change our attachments to the seduction of the world’s ways. Practicing being virtuous will not only increase our internal happiness it will also cause change in those around you. We all have a true nature that was a gift from the creator and is only love and compassion. No matter how evil we have become in our thoughts and actions, there is a place in each of us crying out to be reunited with our true eternal home. Virtue is more than just being a good person, it consists of thinking and acting with a pure heart.

I will make a decision which of these topics to cover first and will continue writing as soon as I finish my book, “These Is my Words” by Nancy E Turner. A diary of a pioneer women in the Arizona Territories during the late eighteen hundreds.